What Else.
Sept 10, 2014.

The nightmares that haunt me,
They toy with my mind.
What kind of meaning,
Am I supposed to find?
They’re all so different,
No pattern or rhyme,
But they play in my head,
Whenever they have time.

I don’t like what they’re finding,
Like a leech; they take my life,
Dissecting each memory,
With a sharp serrated knife.
What are they saying,
If anything at all?
Are they trying to make me stronger,
Or trying to push me so I fall?

Maybe I’m looking too deep,
At what is keeping me awake,
But what else can one do,
When you’re trying not to break. - Michelle Ford

What Else.
Sept 10, 2014.

The nightmares that haunt me,
They toy with my mind.
What kind of meaning,
Am I supposed to find?
They’re all so different,
No pattern or rhyme,
But they play in my head,
Whenever they have time.

I don’t like what they’re finding,
Like a leech; they take my life,
Dissecting each memory,
With a sharp serrated knife.
What are they saying,
If anything at all?
Are they trying to make me stronger,
Or trying to push me so I fall?

Maybe I’m looking too deep,
At what is keeping me awake,
But what else can one do,
When you’re trying not to break. - Michelle Ford


What Do I Do Now?
Sept 8, 2014.

I don’t know what’s happening,
I’ve been trying to see clear.
But every thought,
Has only brought fear.
My nightmares are back,
And I’m scared inside and out.
I can barely configure,
What all of it is about.

I just miss my friends,
And my dad even more.
I am shaking like crazy,
Sitting on the floor.
I’m crying on the inside,
They can see it in my eyes.
I don’t know how much longer,
I can use this disguise.

I’ve broken every piece of it,
I’m trapped in my own mind.
And sometimes I just wish,
There is happiness to find.
I try to think positive,
But I wasn’t ready for this,
And now every day for me.
Is really hit or miss.

I can’t say I’m ready to break down,
Because I do every night.
But even crying,
Doesn’t make me feel right.
I’m debating on seeking help,
It’s sad, but it’s true.
But I can’t find any other option,
Because I no longer know what to do. -Michelle Ford.

What Do I Do Now?
Sept 8, 2014.

I don’t know what’s happening,
I’ve been trying to see clear.
But every thought,
Has only brought fear.
My nightmares are back,
And I’m scared inside and out.
I can barely configure,
What all of it is about.

I just miss my friends,
And my dad even more.
I am shaking like crazy,
Sitting on the floor.
I’m crying on the inside,
They can see it in my eyes.
I don’t know how much longer,
I can use this disguise.

I’ve broken every piece of it,
I’m trapped in my own mind.
And sometimes I just wish,
There is happiness to find.
I try to think positive,
But I wasn’t ready for this,
And now every day for me.
Is really hit or miss.

I can’t say I’m ready to break down,
Because I do every night.
But even crying,
Doesn’t make me feel right.
I’m debating on seeking help,
It’s sad, but it’s true.
But I can’t find any other option,
Because I no longer know what to do. -Michelle Ford.


Remnants.
August 13, 2014.

When I look back,
On the relationship we had,
I can’t help but smile,
Because I don’t feel bad.
The fights and the sorrow,
Have all up and gone.
We replaced them with happiness,
And began to move on.
The friendship that replaced it,
Is what makes me happy.
And to think it all started,
From the remnants of what used to be.
-Michelle Ford.

Remnants.
August 13, 2014.

When I look back,
On the relationship we had,
I can’t help but smile,
Because I don’t feel bad.
The fights and the sorrow,
Have all up and gone.
We replaced them with happiness,
And began to move on.
The friendship that replaced it,
Is what makes me happy.
And to think it all started,
From the remnants of what used to be.
-Michelle Ford.


Sin.
July 25, 2014.

How can you be so bad,
When your smile looks so sweet.
Every time you smile,
I can’t feel my feet.
My stomach gets butterflies,
My cheeks go cherry red.
And every single word you say,
Gets stuck within my head.

But through all the sugar,
Your toxicity is close.
I know I should stay away,
But I want to overdose.
I want to feel your skin,
Pressed against mine.
I want to be beside you,
As our fingers intertwine.

I want to taste your drug,
I want to feel the high.
I want to be floating,
Higher than the sky.
You’re making my mind go crazy,
Your smile is luring me in.
But please forgive me father,
Because I think I’m about to sin. -Michelle Ford.

Sin.
July 25, 2014.

How can you be so bad,
When your smile looks so sweet.
Every time you smile,
I can’t feel my feet.
My stomach gets butterflies,
My cheeks go cherry red.
And every single word you say,
Gets stuck within my head.

But through all the sugar,
Your toxicity is close.
I know I should stay away,
But I want to overdose.
I want to feel your skin,
Pressed against mine.
I want to be beside you,
As our fingers intertwine.

I want to taste your drug,
I want to feel the high.
I want to be floating,
Higher than the sky.
You’re making my mind go crazy,
Your smile is luring me in.
But please forgive me father,
Because I think I’m about to sin. -Michelle Ford.


Inspired.
July 11, 2014.

You’re losing your inspiration,
You’re losing yourself too.
Just take a look around,
While keeping your feet glued.
The grass may not seem,
As green as it did last year,
But your imagination is so creative,
That it should be inspired with fear.

If that doesn’t help,
Look up or look down.
You’ll be amazed,
If you see what I’ve found.
Your sky is faded,
It’s dark within your mind.
But even in darkness,
There are many wonders to find.

If the clouds are blocking,
The stars that you seek.
Look a little deeper,
Because some are trying to peak.
Anything can inspire,
A mind so skilled and strong,
Even when you’re not right,
It’s never felt so good to be wrong.

As for losing yourself,
You never really do.
You’re always there,
Your mirror lies within you.
A regular mirror cannot capture,
Your smile and your soul.
Now please take my hand,
As I help you out of your hole. - Michelle Ford

Inspired.
July 11, 2014.

You’re losing your inspiration,
You’re losing yourself too.
Just take a look around,
While keeping your feet glued.
The grass may not seem,
As green as it did last year,
But your imagination is so creative,
That it should be inspired with fear.

If that doesn’t help,
Look up or look down.
You’ll be amazed,
If you see what I’ve found.
Your sky is faded,
It’s dark within your mind.
But even in darkness,
There are many wonders to find.

If the clouds are blocking,
The stars that you seek.
Look a little deeper,
Because some are trying to peak.
Anything can inspire,
A mind so skilled and strong,
Even when you’re not right,
It’s never felt so good to be wrong.

As for losing yourself,
You never really do.
You’re always there,
Your mirror lies within you.
A regular mirror cannot capture,
Your smile and your soul.
Now please take my hand,
As I help you out of your hole. - Michelle Ford


Love Like Diamonds.
July 8, 2014.

I find it sad,
How every star we see,
We think looks beautiful,
As we love them endlessly.
And through all of this love,
Many do not know,
That all the stars we see now,
Have died years ago.

I wonder if our love relates,
If it died years ago.
When we still seen the beauty,
And didn’t want to let go.
Or maybe our love is like diamonds,
Raining from different places,
With a love that strong,
Will the universe still erase us? -Michelle Ford.

Love Like Diamonds.
July 8, 2014.

I find it sad,
How every star we see,
We think looks beautiful,
As we love them endlessly.
And through all of this love,
Many do not know,
That all the stars we see now,
Have died years ago.

I wonder if our love relates,
If it died years ago.
When we still seen the beauty,
And didn’t want to let go.
Or maybe our love is like diamonds,
Raining from different places,
With a love that strong,
Will the universe still erase us? -Michelle Ford.


Sometimes poetry is the only friend you have left. <3
Anonymous

Losing Everything.
July 6, 2014.

I tried taking a break,
To see my life from afar.
I wondered why I hated myself,
And how I got so far.

Every word I spoke,
Sent me further and further away.
I tried to fix everything,
But broke more ties each day.

Now I&#8217;m lost,
And I don&#8217;t know anything.
I&#8217;m dying on the outside.
Because I just lost everything. -Michelle Ford.

Losing Everything.
July 6, 2014.

I tried taking a break,
To see my life from afar.
I wondered why I hated myself,
And how I got so far.

Every word I spoke,
Sent me further and further away.
I tried to fix everything,
But broke more ties each day.

Now I’m lost,
And I don’t know anything.
I’m dying on the outside.
Because I just lost everything. -Michelle Ford.


Find You.
June 30, 2014.

As I sit here,
And worry about you,
I wonder what trouble,
You may have gotten into.
Did you lose your phone?
Did you get in any fights?
Did you you just get lost,
Enjoying all of the sights?

I hope you&#8217;re okay,
I&#8217;m lost in all my fear,
Wondering again,
Why you&#8217;re not here.
Why&#8217;d I let you go?
What do I do?
I&#8217;d get completely lost,
If only it&#8217;d help me find you. -Michelle Ford

Find You.
June 30, 2014.

As I sit here,
And worry about you,
I wonder what trouble,
You may have gotten into.
Did you lose your phone?
Did you get in any fights?
Did you you just get lost,
Enjoying all of the sights?

I hope you’re okay,
I’m lost in all my fear,
Wondering again,
Why you’re not here.
Why’d I let you go?
What do I do?
I’d get completely lost,
If only it’d help me find you. -Michelle Ford


Addicted.
July 1, 2014.

I&#8217;m drunk on your kiss,
I&#8217;m high on your touch.
Boy, you drive me crazy,
And I just can&#8217;t get enough.

I&#8217;m done with all the randoms,
There&#8217;s no one better than you.
When in your presence,
There&#8217;s nothing I can do.

I get lost in your smile,
As your eyes are on me.
Your hands move up,
To where my heart should be.

The graze up my collarbone,
As your lips get real close.
With a kiss from an angel,
I begin to overdose.

The places you ventured,
That are normally restricted,
Set me off completely,
And I knew I was addicted. - Michelle Ford

Addicted.
July 1, 2014.

I’m drunk on your kiss,
I’m high on your touch.
Boy, you drive me crazy,
And I just can’t get enough.

I’m done with all the randoms,
There’s no one better than you.
When in your presence,
There’s nothing I can do.

I get lost in your smile,
As your eyes are on me.
Your hands move up,
To where my heart should be.

The graze up my collarbone,
As your lips get real close.
With a kiss from an angel,
I begin to overdose.

The places you ventured,
That are normally restricted,
Set me off completely,
And I knew I was addicted. - Michelle Ford